Gettin by with a tiny account of bread, seeing all my heart met with a larger amounts of let downs to get it right, it’s like threading a needle’s eye it’s never the one he likes Inviting him into bed now ..I knew the truth and then you lied to me instead, Kinda seems pathetic I would even fret got what I deserve, I never kept my head down ….Life better be good to me on the next round ….I try to get ahead But keep finding myself behind, barely sliding between the net And im trying to deal with death when in private I feel I’m next tho I gotta good life to live I’m still dying to see my dead pals…. I’ll keep try to bring the best out … even tho i’m entitled to be depressed now V2: weapon on the dash breakfast on my breath. Stepping on the gas, heaven’s on the crest. They tried to tell me id be better off with less but I was never taught how to endeavor thru all the mess forget to call me back, and now I’m all depressed, got me on the track haunted by regrets Never in the loop; forever locked and left out. living on the bench, collecting all the wet towels. I get treated like letters on my desk piled (neglect) a year wasted just tryna make the chef proud. 6 months with a band I cant respect now- I’m letting out a scream that’s as loud as my neighbors sex sounds Trying to show my best, tho I am at home a mess. I guess time is the only test, inside of this lonely nest. Even I can be cold as heck from driving the old bs out. I’ll keep try to bring the best out … even tho i’m entitled to be depressed now

V1:It could be seconds till your death Don’t be bitter what you did with your miserable life when there’s less than a minute left ...The end is nigh but is it a test? I better get this out tonight ‘fore I finish my breath And it’s Best to separate yourself from pessimistic pests *Just in case today’s the day the grim reaper collects Sleeping in my bed, and Never getting rest Not on the winning team I guess I can’t live in peace ill reach heaven I Just have to catch my second wind first They said fake it to make but I’m no pretender A faceless form that stays indoors no one remembers Hot like a pot boiling with the chefs temper At the center of my life looking at the end - but Ive a sense I was sent this for my sense of adventure So Take all of your outer anger and direct it in- Just Like the transgressions of regretful sex offenders Blast this pen! Blast this wretched wretched pen! It never Takes me to places I’ve never been.. Or makes me some better friends No escape from the web it spins The devastation of every bridge left me in the hellish den. It plays with me and never lets me win, using music as my medicine. it makes me feel better than these beverages or sedatives ever did, man. Still doing what they said I can’t whenever I can V2: i should be better than this mess head is cluttered like the piles of letters that I need shredded on my desk. Wish that I could use my relevance to measure my success Probably could have suffocated if I’d ever held my breath But uh...Too many edits to my text I should leave in cause People all can see that I’m a wreck I realized, I’m No better than this dread of life or death. It feels like I might never find my best, but I digress 'Cause I’m fine with that, I’ll find it back from where I get left. .. Tried to bide my time but now the vibe is dead (I was) Holding back, when I should let it off my chest The weathers never been as awful and I’ll bet our stop is next. Blast this pen! Blast this wretched wretched pen! It never Takes me to places I’ve never been.. Or makes me some better friends No escape from the web it spins The devastation of every bridge left me in the hellish den. It plays with me and never lets me win, using music as my medicine. it makes me feel better than these beverages or sedatives ever did, man. Still doing what they said I can’t

Phil: Half way up the climb they threw me down the stairs Since a youth with a foolish amount of cares we’ve been proving that we true to this like some smooth magicians We pull this music out the air so you could listen…. You should listen. X2 TaskRok: An unstoppable force, On course for a fatal collision. can't escape the system so I fake im in stable condition. How can I make changes, when I cant even make a decision? Couldn't pray for wisdom from a god who created religion. The worlds an awfully big place, but it's my head im lost in. it's gotten huge since a lot of people said im awesome. And ill be dropping, until my beds a coffin. I see you fellas scoffing, hella jealous often. prudent, like an A student, giving no "f"s Yeah im feeling broke, yet, still I got some hope left. but no amount of hoping is making it happen, moments I should focus and im smoking or taking a dabbing. I been, missing, from the, scene. tunnel, vision, from the, screen. hit the power button, feeling like its now or nothing, takes me time to write. This last bar took an hour something. Phil: Half way up the climb they threw me down the stairs Since a youth with a foolish amount of cares we’ve been proving that we true to this like some smooth magicians We pull this music out the air so you could listen…. You should listen. x2 Had to find this beat to silence all of my mind’s chatter. so please listen in like a missing pilot for flight data it’s like magic when I grab on this mic gadget, huh? I’d give a fuhg but Nothing inside my life matters The Only pick me ups I get is from some swooping falcons.. Hitting scoops of sauce that always leaves me glued to couches. Spew it out just like a human fountain, magic that could move a mountain. boot em out, lets see how well you do without him. Cause What’s the, point of, my ex, -istence? i av, -oid and try to just mind my business, They said do it right the first time instead But I didn’t now im living with the hurt like they said Half way up the climb they threw me down the stairs Sinnce a youth with a foolish amount of cares we’ve been proving that we true to this like some smoooth magicians We pull this music out the air. So you could listen…. you should listen….

There's No hurry, never worry what What path to drive. We'll just let google maps decide that this time I'm not doing my typical moves asinine, Acting like Im on the verge of dying when im actually fine. X2 PHiL: Getting lidded as my eyes isn’t that surprising ? Tsunami on the horizon, swimming at the tide ..i can’t Seem to Put the past behind me i feel unworthy of my happiness, its agonizing since quittin' bitchin' and gettin' what I been askin' nicely, I’m gettin in it, back then I didn’t have an ID tryna have a lavish life, it seems mad enticin, But life gets frightening when it strikes ya like a flash of lightning It might seem like fleeing another heist scene ‘Stead of sight seeing and eating a cup of ice cream Life's fleeting and speedy just like a light beam. Holding tightly to this pipe dream, I’m quite keen. Life’s not what it might seem, So keep your head up And Keep a net up for these people Tryna lead the setup. these Things we learn as we Develop- But its whatever, love you forever. For worse or better and.. Theres No hurry. Never worry what What path to drive, You just let google maps decide that this time we’re not doing our typical moves asinine Acting like Im on were the verge of dying when we’re actually fine.

Im sorry for what this became .. I’m lust a lame tryna fix the glitch up in my brain but- is it just in vain, My love? What is it you crave? I’ll run. What would it take to make you stay? Just wish away. Cause I’d do anything to fix this painful situation. some days these thoughts seem senseless to entertain She’s at the entrance to the plane tryna to dip but in the way singing please stay And wish away.. Stay. Never been this distant with someone thats just an inch away You’re always on the center stage of my mental stadium. Pull me in and hold me close to tell me it’s ok Tell me what it is you wish, I’ll never disobey. A kiss a day for twenty years, a couple trips to Spain. (or Maine)